Breakthrough?!

Oh God, I've screamed to You today - even though You already know the depths of my heart. I feel like I can't stand it anymore. I'm tired of feeling so all alone - even though I know I'm not. I'm tired of fighting the same battles. I am ready to see things change. I've been told that when you feel like giving up the most to HOLD ON because breakthrough is right around the corner. I'm barely holding on. Please God - work fast. I can't believe 2009 is almost over. What have we accomplished?